Breathe Again

Hello folks....it has been a busy couple of weeks! God has definitely been in the blessing business. If you truly love him, live for him and stand on his word he will supply your every need. Life has been fast and crazy at times. I'm just looking forward to moving on and having everything that the Lord has for me. Lately my boys have been acting out of their character, I'm not sure what the deal is but I know that this too shall pass. I know that having a father is important to a young man. It has to be as much as a young woman needing and having her mother. There are so many things that I can't teach them about being a man that they will need their dad for. I just hope that one day their relationships can be repaired and they can have the father/son relationship that they deserve and need. Sometimes I feel as if I let them down but this was a two way street. For years this has been developing. People have to take responsibility for their mess-ups! It's easy to play the blame game, but you will see that when you grow up and take responsibility for your actions and work to fix things....everything will fall into place. I am about to start living my life to the fullest. No limitations on God!!!! This is my Season and I will have all that he said I can have. One day that husband who will love me as God loves the church will find me. I will be his virtuous woman in waiting!!I'm sure the road won't be easy but I'm willing to travel it anyway. I'm just looking forward to lovong myself and having an awesome relationship with my heavenly father!!! I have so much to learn about myself that I din't know and so much to do for the Lord.I'm just excited :) Until next time....

Under Construction

This one will probably be short and sweet today. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday weekend. I have taken the last few days to examine myself and see exactly where I need to start to pick my life up and move on. People say all the time what they would do if this happened and when it happens the truth is...it does not always go the way we plan! I know that everyday my heaviness will get a little less heavy, my heartache will hurt a little less and I will love myself a little more. When I look into the mirror I want to see this beautiful woman that others tell me they see. It's amazing to me that someone can look in the mirror and not see their worth. In the past when I looked in there I saw insecurity, hurt, grief, loss and unworthiness. Slowly but surely I'm starting to see beauty not just on the outside but inner beauty, confidence and worthiness. I am wonderfully and fearfully made and my father in heaven loves me. That by itself is enough to make me be able to go on. Don't get me wrong it's a struggle and I know it won't be easy...but I know my father has it all under control. I have learned to never give someone else the power to make you feel less than. You are more than enough!! And if you love God and live by his word he will supply your every need. He may not come everytime when we want him to come but he is ALWAYS ontime! We have to realize that some things we desire aren't good for us and our father knows it. Just know that whatever it is if he doesn't deliver you...just know that he is ABLE to!!