Picked out to be picked on

Sorry I haven't been posting in awhile but I've been going through a lot. Some people have been picked out to be picked on. I felt like I had everything planned amd it was supposed to go the way I planned it...but God already set my pace. Sometimes we wonder why we are the one's who are chosen to go through these trials but God knows what we can handle better than we know.for the past two days I've been in the bed thinking about what I did wrong what I should have done and what I can do better to make my situation better than what it is. The whole time I'm trying to figure it out God has already worked it out. Saying all that to say trust God don't try to work it out on your own if you love him and trust him believe the he's already working it out in your favor.please forgive me if I have any mistakes because I'm writing this blog from my cell phone today. So last week I went in to take my licensing exam for nursing and down to the computer and I pray before I started taking a test and I pray during a test and when it was time for me to take my first break I remember walking to the bathroom in slow motion because our own question 115 any had stopped. I was hoping that my computer would stop at 75. So on my way back when I was checking in the lady at the desk inform me that someone from every group gets randomly chosen 2 take the whole test 265 question. So for somebody with a text and said that is freaking me out. When I got back to my computer my text kept going and going sure enough 6 hours later 265 questions I was done. I cried on my way to the elevator because I feel defeated. At that moment I I realize that I may have failed this test. I was so focused on the answers that I didn't know and douting God that I basically made myself believe I failed before I even knew. that wasn't me I know that if I have faith as small as a mustard seed I can move mountains. so Wednesday afternoon I got the news and I was devastated. I've really only told my family and a few friends but I know so many others are dying to know if they haven't already logged on to check and to see if I passed. I thank God through all of this he is still giving me favor in high places. My new manager doesn't even know me personally but God touched her heart and she reached out to me and told me that this happens sometimes and another one of her nurses had this happen to her. She offered me a nurse tech position for the next month and a half so I can still have income and study to retake boards. Even through the midst of the storm God still worked it out on my behalf. That's why I love him so much and even when I feel down I just think about where he brought me from and my spirit rejoices. So today I got out of the bed sent thst depressing spirit back to the pits of hell where it came from and taking my joy back. Starting with cleaning my house, cooking my fellas a home cooked mealand tthen studying. I have to wait atleast 45 days before I can retest. I have no doubt that I will be successful this time but I'm definitely going to be more specific in my prayers! Lord I decree that I will pass this time and I wwill pass with 75 questions! In Jesus name I claim it done!