Letting Go and Letting God

Hello everyone, So just to piggyback off of my last post I decided to offer my husband one last chance after everything that has been done. After going to church and hearing from God I decided it was the right thing to do. Unfortunately after talking to him he is not willing to change. He will not stop what he is doing and I decided that I'm no longer going to deal with it. After talking to him I took a day off last week to go ahead and proceed in the area of a divorce. I know people have mixed emotions on divorce but I have to believe that my father who made me, does not want me to keep dealing with this. I will continue to pray for my husband and I hope that one day he will get it together but as for now it's not in the cards for me. On a good note.... yesterday in church I was given the opportunity to give a talk. I spoke on something I've been dealing with for a long time. When things happen to us in life sometimes it brings us to a point of being broken. And when we're broken things people say to us or about us affect us no matter if we admit it or not. Well I have been struggling with feeling worthy...the past mistakes I've made, my husband not loving or respecting me I felt less than a woman. I felt like if I couldn't even please my husband who is just a man how could I be pleasing to God? I had been praying for God to reveal my purpose and he showed me in a dream and I thought how can I minister to people when my life is so screwed up? But the Lord began to work on me in the spirit because we have to remember that "we wrestle not against flesh and blood but spiritual wickedness in high places" Ephesians 6:12. In the spirit is where God can minister to you. Am I perfect...no but I strive everyday to be better than the day before. Anyway I spoke on Psalms 139 13:15 on how God formed me in my mother's womb and how I'm fearfully and wonderfully made. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. You see sometimes all you have to do is pick up that word! Encourage yourself! You have to know that God will never leave you or forsake you. We were never promised that it would be easy...longsuffering is one of the fruits of the spirit! All you have to know is that weaping may endure for night...but Joy is coming on the morning! When it is your season you will reap the benefits. So I say all of that to say whatever you're going through trust him, don't give up, don't give in. Your miracle is at the end of your storm!